Finding Time To Meditate
There's a zen parable about a young man who asks his teacher, "Should I study or meditate, since I only have one free hour left after my work and chores?" It's a tough question for the zen teacher because it asks him support one worthy discipline over another. But the teacher quickly responds, "Meditate, then you'll discover that you have more than one free hour in the day."
Meditation Is Not An Activity
Seeking an end result from meditation is falsely approaching it the same way you would approach any another activity; in order to get something, whereas meditation is exactly about who you are NOW. It's focus is just to be, not to be something else.
Meditation is a continuous exploration. It is a process of self-examination, of personal evolution. It has no end. Rather, it is continuous in the same way a moment is forever continuous. When "meditation" and the "moment" are in sync, you are completely present and not concerned with pursuing an "activity."
Meditating On The Why
By asking yourself the "why", you have already begun the process of meditation. Meditation is a constant, not just relegated to sitting on the floor every morning. Albert Low, a teacher at the Montreal Zen Center in Rivière-des-Prairies, puts it aptly:
“Meditation is not a technique. It’s an inquiry. You don’t do it in order that something else is accomplished. The very act of doing it means an enrichment, one’s life is enriched not as a consequence of the technique but of the fact of the inquiry itself.”
Next time you berate yourself for not making time to meditate, stop and re-consider why you want to meditate and why you can't find time. By doing so, you will start down a road of self-understanding that you can meditate on.